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The weekend started out wonderful for my Birthday weekend.

Saturday, we got up early and snuggled in bed, me and my little girl.

At 10:30 we went to a greasy spoon diner called the Commador. They had the most intriguing things on the menu. For breakfast, I decided to try the kitchy "Boiled Weiners And Saurkraut".

HAHA It was awesome! So fun.

At 12:00 Noon, the family and I and our close friends Jeff & Charlene went to the Alberta Ledge Grounds to participate in a walk in rememberence of all the children who pass away too early (SIDS, Miscarriage, StillBorn, etc.). I was walking for all my friends who had lost babies, and for myself, the two that I have lost. My friend Jeff (Godfather to my Natalia) carried with him his son Daulton, that passed away at 8 months gestation due to Toxic Womb Syndrome. 

The walk was 1.8KM around the peaceful and beautiful grounds. This was the first annual walk held in Edmonton. 350 people showed up in support. It was beautiful. The sun was shining and it was breezy. Leaves blowing down from the trees. The last bit of the walk was thru the avenue of trees, and had all our babies names on the sidewalk. At the end of the ceremony we let a balloon go in the wind with a wish tag on it for each of our babies. I cried. Natalia let her brother and sister's balloon go and said "Bye babies! I miss you" ( She is 2.5 yrs, so smart) It was amazing. I will post pictures.

Then that night was my dinner at my favorite Indian restaurent where we could eat our fill of butter chicken and naan and other delights from the buffet. My friends were asked to dress all in pink ( as it is my favorite color) and make a monetary donation in my name to cancer research. An aunt on my inlaws side has just been diagnosed with stage one breastcancer.

The dinner was great. We went back to my house to have dessert! I recreated the Kitchen sink sundae that is served in Florida at walt disney world's Beaches and Cream. I will post a pic of that too haha.

The nite ended not so great when Natalia fell down all 14 of my laminate covered stairs from the very top. I was upset at the horrid sound of her falling, but more so that she fell. I was having my birthday massage, and felt bad that someone wasn't watching her more closely. She seemed ok tho, and kids are resiliant thank heavens. We stayed up most of the nite watching her for signs of a concussion, but I am happy to report that she is amazing as ever, and doing perfect. Two goose eggs on her head, and a bruise on her back, and her fear of stairs is all she has to show now.

♥♥♥

The next day being my actual bithday, I got up to a smiling face and my Tilly poking my nose with her foot and saying "happy To-day to you mummy" :-)

We got up and went for breakfast sandwiches at Subway! My fave! and then had a big nap!!!

That night we went to my inlaws who had made my faves! Spaghetti and meatballs and Raisen pie for dessert! YAHOO.

Best birthday in years I think :-)

Hugz to all my friends out there... look for pix!  ♥ ♥ ♥

 

On Sunday October 5th I will turn 33. I was born Sunday,October 5th, 1975 at 2:45pm.  

I think that's cool. This year my birthday will be on the same day as the actual day I was born!

AND I'm turning double same digits, that's fun too!!

This year, I decided to do something different for my birthday.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE the color pink. So I decided that along with dinner at my favorite Indian Restaurent on the day before my actual birthday, Everyone must wear the color PINK! Even the boys!! Hehe.

At the dinner I have requested no gifts this year. Instead, I have asked that everyone who is coming (25 people) look into their wallets, and along with the dinner they will buy themselves, that they give a donation in my name to the Cancer Clinic. One of my family has recently been diagnosed with breast cancer. They caught it early enough to think that things will be ok. But all  the same, this is a cause close to my heart. I used to volunteer at the Cancer Clinic here. I have over 200 hours in volunteer. Visiting with patients, bringing them snacks and drinks while they wait for tests, and resaults and receive Chemo.  Working in the gift shop, or in the coffee shop. Reading to patients who have lost their vision to cancer. It was all good work done that made me happy to contribute.

Before Dinner, I will be going on the "Walk to Remember" ( www.walktoremember.ca) . It is a 1.8KM walk in memory of all the babies who gained their wings. All the babies who were lost due to miscarrage, stillbirth, SIDS or another reason. I myself lost two babies in the last few years to miscarrage. Emily♥ and Adam♥.  Emily♥ was born asleep on Christmas day 2007. And Adam♥ was born asleep May 24th 2006. I will be walking with my BEAUTIFUL baby girl Natalia♥. And we will write the names of her Angel sister and Angel brother on the balloons that will be released.

I have also made a T-Shirt with all the names of the babies of friends and family who have been lost to them.

I will post pictures from the walk and my T-shirt after Sunday ♥  Until then Have a wonderful weekend my friends :-)

 

 

Birthday Quotes:

First you forget names; then you forget faces; then you forget to zip up your fly; and then you forget to unzip your fly.  ~Branch Rickey


Youth is a disease from which we all recover.  ~Dorothy Fulheim


Youth would be an ideal state if it came a little later in life.  ~Herbert Asquith


I'm sixty years of age.  That's 16 Celsius.  ~George Carlin, Brain Droppings, 1997


You're not 40, you're eighteen with 22 years experience.  ~Author Unknown


I still have a full deck; I just shuffle slower now.  ~Author Unknown


A diplomat is a man who always remembers a woman's birthday but never remembers her age.  ~Robert Frost


Our birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.  ~Jean Paul Richter


The secret of staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.  ~Lucille Ball


May you live to be a hundred years
With one extra year to repent.
~Author Unknown


Birthdays are good for you.  Statistics show that the people who have the most live the longest.  ~Larry Lorenzoni


Time may be a great healer, but it's a lousy beautician.  ~Author Unknown


Inside every older person is a younger person wondering what happened.  ~Jennifer Yane


Wisdom doesn't necessarily come with age.  Sometimes age just shows up all by itself.  ~Tom Wilson  

 

http://www.wiredsafety.org/cyberstalking_harassment/united_kingdom/uk_stalkinglaw.html

http://www.wiredsafety.org/cyberstalking_harassment/canada/ca_stalkinglaw.html

http://www.wiredsafety.org/cyberstalking_harassment/us_states/us_stalkinglaws_list.html

 

The first is the law regarding internet stalking and harassment in UK

the second is law regarding internet stalking and harassment in Canada

the third is a link to all the US state laws regarding internet stalking and harassment.

 

Having talked to a lawyer friend of mine with my husband over the weekend, It seems that the law (internationally speaking) is that the person being accused would be tried according to the law in the country of the Acusee. So all of you with issues related to internet stalkers, harassers, bullies and threats, click for info in your area and see. We don't have to put up with people like that anymore. There are laws to protect you.  When we give in, Bullies win.

ALSO HOW TO "SS" OR SCREENSHOOT harassing chat, or stalker talk for sending in:

 

with the offensive chat showing on your screen, press CTRL and PRINT SCREEN together

this will take a "picture" of your screen

next open under the START menu of your computer PAINT ( will be found in ACCESSORIES)

once the paint program opens click CTRL and V together, this will paste the "picture " you just took to the paint "canvas" 

then go to the top left and click "FILE"  then "SAVE AS"  and save it titled whatever you need to and save as a JPEG file.

 

you may need to do this more then once to take pictures of all the offensive chat if there is alot. There are also some great free downloadable programs available "Capture" and "screenShot"  and "Screen Hunter" are all good programs. Make sure your "SS" has a date and time stamp so that it can be proven.

 

 

Beautiful daughter

A precious little flower
that is in constant bloom
I watch as yet another milestone
around the corner looms.
It seems like only yesterday
that we shared a breath
but now it seems like tomorrow
you will leave and I'll be left.
A tiny little angel
that always is in flight
as soon as you came into my life
you brought me so much light.
Your beauty is so stunning
your smile makes me melt
I'm so proud to be your mommy
It's the best I've ever felt.
Oh perfect little princess
with you I'm so in love
every night before I dream
I thank the lord above.
How did I get so lucky
to have as sweet of a gift as you
If ever you should need me
there's nothing I wouldn't do.
~Anonymous

 

 

My daughter is my whole world. I marvel at everything she does, and says, and becomes. I want her to slow down and hurry up at the same time (growing up) so I can enjoy the time I have and at the same time see who she will be.

 

 

Sean paul and blu cantrell
remix that gona make ya head swell yo
yo hey yo yo hey yo

so what's that supposed to be about baby
ya'll free up ya mind and stop actin crazy
reminisce about all the good times daily
why you try pull that got me actin crazy

what's that supposed to be about baby
ya'll free up ya mind and stop actin crazy
sean paul u'll give ya the good lovin daily
now you try and pull that got me actin shady

[blu]

You say you love, say you love me
But you’re never there for me, yeah, mmm...hmm...
You’ll be cryin’, slowly dyin’
When I decide to leave, oh, oh

All we do is make up
Then break up
Why don’t we wake up
And see

When love hurts
It won’t work
Maybe we need some time alone
We need to let it breathe

Breathe
Breathe
Breathe

[sean]

so what's that supposed to be about baby
ya'll free up ya mind and stop actin crazy
reminisce about all the good times daily
why you try pull that got me actin crazy

[blu]

You’re only lonely when your homey
Ain’t got a ride or no loot, yeah, uh-huh
Then comes the drama
Some other girl is claimin’ she’s goin’ out with you,

hmm...hmm...

All we do is make up
Then break up
Why don’t we wake up
And see

When love hurts
It won’t work
Maybe we need some time alone
We need to let it breathe

Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe (Uh...huh...)
Breathe

[sean]

so what's that supposed to be about baby
ya'll free up ya mind and stop actin crazy
shady shady shady shady

not again
my girl for the fourth time
let me make it very clear to you
your very dear to me
and honor of me
share to you
me not unfair to you
who would u want
for real you make me know and
i will be there for you
but me know im not a fear to you
stand up like a man and not be there cuz i care for you
long time tellin you
no other girl can compare to you
woman if you leave me now,
im gonna share alotta tears for you
say you want to breathe
im still not im exhalin'
say you want to leave cuz this relationship failin'
aint nobody say that it would be smooth sailin'
girl i wana know why your bailin'

so what's that supposed to be about baby
gante free up ya mind and stop actin crazy
reminisce about all the good times daily
why you try pull that got me actin shady shady baby baby

[blu]

maybe we need some time alone
so we can just breathe
let it breathe
breathe
breathe
let it breathe
breathe
breathe
breathe
breathe
yeah yeah yeah yeah let it breathe yeah
oh oh time to breathe yall...
 

this sang reminds me of some things some people I know always hafta put up with....

 

[Paul Wall:]
Boys talkin' down
On the sidelines watching wishin' they was playin' the game we playin'
But its all good though
Paul Wall Brooke what up baby

[Brooke:]
What's it to you Paul Wall
Look who's talkin'

[Paul Wall:]
Ok I hear the commentators on the side chatter boxing
Paul Wall and Brooke got all the paparazzi watching
I hear them jam japing bumping guns chasing crones
We ain't concerned with them bums we cumulating fun
Plastic wrist we got the Johnny Dang watch froze 5 kid yellow stone
I'm squashing chatter when the light hit the pinky ring
Starch and clean white puff with the lean
See me in the new Benz cuz I'm oh so ballin'
Or a old school slab with the few wheels fallin'
We got em talkin' but really they ain't saying too much
Just speculating the gossip truth is they don't know about us

[Brooke:]
I see your lips moving but I don't hear nothing
Everybody talking like they really know something about us
But they don't know nothing about us
I see your lips moving but I don't hear nothing
Everybody talking like they really wanna know something about us
But they don't know nothing about us

(Talk to 'em Brooke)

[Brooke:]
I'm just trying to live but your all up in my grill
How's a girl to breathe with all the media starring down my mouth
With a four inch lenz I just wanna hit the mall with some of my friends

[Paul Wall:]
They talkin' bout us so I guess were doing something right
Ballin' in the mix with the camera lights shining bright
They know we caked up but they don't know how much we worth
people clear the ceiling off because we getting work

[Brooke:]
Picture yourself up in my shoes
Top story in the news
Everyday its something new
Everybody's watching you
But they ain't seen nothing
They Ain't heard nothing
Everybody's just fronting its what they do

[Brooke:]
I see your lips moving but I don't hear nothing
Everybody talking like they really know something about us
But they don't know nothing about us
I see your lips moving but I don't hear nothing
Everybody talking like they really wanna know something about us
But they don't know nothing about us

Stop stop stop
I'm not listing
You can save your breath
I don't wanna hear the rumors people are spreading
Why, why do people go
Out of there way
To try to bring us down
They wanna know about us

I see your lips moving but I don't hear nothing
Everybody talking like they really know something about us
But they don't know nothing about us
I see your lips moving but I don't hear nothing
Everybody talking like they really wanna know something about us
But they don't know nothing about us

 

doesn't it SUCK when all ppl do is talk about you and your life like they really truly know you and like they know what they are talking bout??

Why do ppl do that???

 

SOMEONE said...
 

 

Somebody said it takes about six weeks to get back to normal after you've had a baby .
 somebody doesn't know that once you're a mother, "Normal," is history.


Somebody said you learn how to be a mother by instinct ..
Somebody never took a three-year-old shopping.


Somebody said being a mother is boring ......
Somebody never rode in a car driven by a teenager with a driver's permit.


Somebody said if you're a "good" mother, your child will "turn out good."
Somebody thinks a child comes with directions and a guarantee.

Somebody said "good" mothers never raise their voices .
Somebody never came out the back door just in time to see her child hit a golf ball through the neighbor's kitchen window.

Somebody said you don't need an education to be a mother.
Somebody never helped a fourth grader with her math.

Somebody said you can't love the fifth child as much as you love the first.
Somebody doesn't have five children.

Somebody said a mother can find all the answers to her child-rearing questions in the books ........
Somebody never had a child stuff beans up his nose or in his ears.

Somebody said the hardest part of being a mother is labor and delivery ......
Somebody never watched her "baby" get on the bus for the first day of kindergarten.
or on a plane headed for military "boot camp."

Somebody said a mother can do her job with her eyes closed and one hand tied behind her back .......
somebody never organized four giggling Brownies to sell cookies.

Somebody said a mother can stop worrying after her child gets married ....

Somebody doesn't know that marriage adds a new son or daughter-in-law to a mother's heartstrings.

Somebody said a mother's job is done when her last child leaves home ....  

Somebody never had grandchildren.

Somebody said your children know you love them, so you don't need to tell them.......

Somebody isn't a mother.

 

 

~Anonymous
 

"Instead of pointing a finger, we should hold out our hand."
 
  --  Henry Drummond

 
They survive by pointing the finger of blame at each other. ~Mary Douglas

 

When you point a finger at someone else, remember there are three pointing back at you

 

When you blame others, you give up your power to change.
~Robert Anthony

 

Clean your finger before you point at my spots.

~Benjamin Franklin

 

One should examine oneself for a very long time before thinking of condemning others.  ~Moliere

 

Many of us believe that wrongs aren't wrong if it's done by nice people like ourselves. 

 ~Author Unknown

 

Forbear to judge, for we are sinners all.  ~William Shakespeare, Henry VI

 

As no roads are so rough as those that have just been mended, so no sinners are so intolerant as those that have just turned saints.  ~Charles Caleb Colton

Moral indignation is jealousy with a halo.  ~H.G. Wells

 

The injury we do and the one we suffer are not weighed in the same scales.  ~Aesop, Fables

How seldom we weigh our neighbors in the same balance as ourselves.  ~Thomas à Kempis

 

We have two ears and one mouth, so thus we should listen more then speak

 

People will disapprove of you if you're unhappy, or if you're happy in The Wrong Way.  ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966

PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN GLASS HOUSES SHOULD NOT TOSS STONES....

 

Gossip, confusion, misunderstanding and third party knowledge gets very confusing.

When you talk to someone directly, it clears things up in a hurry.

When you first meet someone online, not always are they telling the truth. But really, do you blame them? I don't think we can. I for one have not ALWAYS been totally honest all of the time. And who says that when you meet someone online that you will become fast friends and talk together forever ( so to speak). So it's easy and really almost expected that people online are not always who they say they are. Sometimes, people do it for many reasons. Again, I am the last person to point fingers...

I have learned many lessons here and other places, but the one lesson I have learned is that when you ask for the truth, usually you can get it. We don't always get hurt, but sometimes we do. But when the person on the other end can take responsibility for hurting us, intentional or unintentional, thats when healing can begin.

I made a big mistake, actually several big mistakes. And now it is my responsibility to appologize to the ones that I have hurt.

Travis, I am sorry for all the things I have done in 5+yrs to cause you pain, anger, distress, and upset. I tell you all the time that I love you, yet, I do not always show this. And since actions speak louder then words, I will from now on endeavor to show you that I care. That you are my friend, and that you matter to me. I appologize.

Shy, I also appologize to you. Rude things were said and done to embarass you and anger you publicly. That is not how I would want my little girl to act. And so it's time to own up to the things I have done to you that have caused you pain, embarassment and uncomfort. I hope someday that you and I can talk, and maybe repair some of the damage that was done. You were a good friend to me, and I have missed that for a long time now. Petty Jealousy and ignorance has clouded my thoughts and I have used that as an excuse to make it right that I act so self rightous. I appologize.

 

 

as for anyone else reading this, and now scoffing and thinking "omg, what an idiot, what a meat puppet" and all the other things you love to call me/us/them...

it doesn't matter that you say this.. I didnt do this for you....

I did it for myself, and because it is the right thing to do.

 

So, it's been three weeks. I guess this time you really aren't coming back. I hope I'm not making the wrong decision here. But I need to let go. I can't come back everyday with hope in my heart for something that just isn't going to be. Hard enough to have kept the faith for the last year, never mind the last 3 weeks. I guess it's time to move on, and take with me the memories of who you were to me.  I will take what I have, and smile because it happened (thank ShyB for that quote) and just..... carry on. I can't really keep the heartache going. And I guess rightly so, as it's been over a year for me anyhow.

I promise to always miss you,

I promise to always kiss the baby for you

I promise to always keep it warm lol

and I promise that I will never forget you.

 

I hope that wherever you are, you finally found the happiness I always wished for you. Take care my friend. You are missed.

 

So I guess all that's left is to say

Good bye.

 

 

Goodbye ~ Miley Cyrus

I can honestly say,
You've been on my mind since I woke up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playin'
I remember the simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I want to forget
Is goodbye

I woke up this morning and played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up with your ringtone
I hesitate but answer it any way
You sound so alone
I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

You remember the simple things
We talked till we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing I wish I'd forget
Is saying goodbye

Saying goodbye
Ooh
Goodbye
 
 
Final Goodbye ~ Rhianna


[Verse 1]
I never should of waited so long to say
What I've always known since the very first day
Thought that you would stay forever with me
But the time has come to leave

[Chorus]
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you 'til the final goodbye

[Verse 2]
Hold, draw me close, close to my lips
Listen intently as I tell you this
Outside the world wages its wars,
I'll rest in peace as long as you know

[Chorus]
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you 'til the final goodbye

[Bridge]
Promise you our love will carry on
Until you turn eternal, we belong

[Chorus:]
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
It's you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you till the final goodbye

His respectful lips for the last time
And spell out the lyrics to love in the sky
Its you that I live for and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you till the final goodbye

Goodbye