Since everyone has an oppinon...

Tell me what you think it means to LOVE.

Any level of love, any kind of love. What does it mean to you?

 

I will start:

I think there are several kinds of Love:

Puppy love: that first simple crush. so fresh so new so innocent. you are attracted to someone, your heart flutters, your face blushes, your tummy tightens and you smile uncontrolably. You think about the person all the time.

 

Deep Love: a love that has mellowed thru the years. A feeling that has mellowed out thru the years. where you care for someone deeply and are intimately connected to them emotionally. You have an intimate understanding of eachother and are comfortable in it.

 

Forbidden Love: an attraction you cannot help even tho you know it is not approved by society. A man for a man, woman for woman, or an age difference, or something else taboo. You keep your feelings secret from everyone but eachother. You wish everyday that your relationship was acceptible. secret looks, secret notes and always a feeling of intrigue.... an excitement.

 

Love for a child:  an innocent eternally binding love. Unconditional in feeling, strength, time and space. knows no boundries. Can be felt with a look or touch. So sweet and pure.

 

Love for a tangible Item: it makes you smile when you think of it. When you are with it the joy of it is immediate and intense. Does not last long. can be fleeting... can change... outside factors can have an impact on it.

Physical Love: the act of loving, using body parts... hehe. Cant get any more in detail then that... without being banned :-P

 

these  are MY definitions of Love.  This is how I have experienced them. You might agree , you might not.... but I'd love to hear all oppinions .. look forward to hearing from you.

 

T is for always Thinking of you

H is for Heart, yours n mine too

L is for an emotion you say you dont feel

A is for always and that much is real.

 

Y is for You, so special to me

A is for Anything, what I'd give to be

 

G is for Gift,( and thank you for HER )

W is for Wish, What I want? You and me...

A nd

N is for Never as in Never ment to be....(*sigh*)

T is for wishing to hold you so Tight.

A is for always... it feels so right....

 

K is for KISS

A nd

K ISS you I would....

E is for Evening..in my dreams I see you....

M is for Miss you, which always I do....

A is for ABSURD, which I know this poem is...

(but you see the message, so there's nothing amiss)

 

 

 

if I say I wrote it last minute in a hurry but with full intentions.. does it make it a little bit better??? :-) 

 

So, now three pairs of friends of mine are fighting ( n no not in here ... in real life)

and I've insulted my husband's best friend's VERY pregnant wife.....

and I am plagued lately by utter nonsensical dreams and horrid nightmares....

 

Since I can't call my friends by their names... I will call each of them appropriate AKA names

first pair is Dick & Jane.

Dick and Jane used to be totally best friends to me and to eachother. We would have awesome times hanging as friends at parties and events. We planned to go to this one event together. Dick & I approached Jane on it n she neither gave a yes or no answer. It was something she was totally interested in... the day came? and she did not show, she had told me only if she was gonna show she would call me... she never called. Dick came to pick me up and said kk, where's Jane... Jane's not coming I said.. he asked why and I said, well she never said yes... he said she never said no either, and I had my heart set on this and she blew me off.. im hurt and P-d off! .. he ranted n raved in his hurt for the rest of the nite, even tho we had a totally good time at our seminar. It continued online unbeknownst to me, on facebook chats n walls... became an all out war of words. Til last weekend, while I was at chuck e cheese with Natalia the Husband of Jane called n said give me Dick's number cuz he made my wife bawl hysterically upstairs, I'm gonna give him what for. Since I couldnmt give out the number.. I said I would contact him... so then the Husband and Dick went at it thru facebook, and had a big war of words.. and now it is so bad, that they are big time "beat you up if ever I see you again" enemies...

best yet?? Jane & Dick are godparents to my lil girl...

they need to be at all her functions... and as my best friends I expect them to be at all of mine...

and now I'm throwing a BBQ for my hubby to return to work... neither will coem because the other will be there,...

 

Second Pair: Cain & Abel. Cain and Abel grew up together almost like brothers... until me. I was the divide n conquer... i guess.  Now after 20 yrs of relationship... they are packing it in.. why?? because I cannot get along with Abel's girlfriend. A girlfriend I might add said to me while I was pregnant in November... " I hope that you miscarry the retarded ugly chimp inside you as you are too fat n stupid to have children, just look at the retarded and hidious f-d up cabbage patch doll you have already for a daughter for an example"  ... she means Natalia is an ugly retarded cabbage patch doll.. ( for those of you not having seen my daughter.. go look... does she appear that to you??? ) so sure enough once something is put out into the atmosphere as a wish, Karma takes it and runs with it in my belief... and I miscarried during Christmas. She further taunted me by sending me a nice inbox in facebook to say: glad you lost it... you were already too fat you really couldnt afford to raise two retards and gain the baby weight."   YA shes a NICE person...

so now I am accused of forcing my CULTISH beleifs onto Cain and therefore turning him against Abel. I killed Abel's girlfriends father by wishing Justice on her for what she wished on me. ( He died last month of Diabetes he was hiding from his family) and that I'm 200lbs overweight so THATS why I lost both my babies. ( I got pregnant with one 6 weeks after Nat was born and THATS why it failed, and the second one? Yes, my sugars were too high)  So, now Cain and Abel are thru after 20yrs because of me.

 

Third: Adam Ever and Lilith... .Adam and Lilith used to date, for many years they dated, then Adam got bored, and found Eve. He liked her better ( and I have to admit Lilith was a smidgy abusive to poor Adam) So he left Lilith and moved in with Eve. I cannot invite Eve and Lilith to be at the same parties.. why??? cuz they openly admit that even tho this happened 3 years ago already that they will beat the ever lovin SNOToutta eachother. So now when I have parties, they all want to attend, but not if the other will be there.. so i invite one of the other and then wait for the first to tell me ya or nay before inviting the other. Problem?? the first one will wait til the NIGHT OF my party to tell me yay or nay, forcing a LAST MINUTE invite to the other. and yes its on purpose.

 

Last?? I read the status of my hubby best friend. She is VERY PREGNANT, it said : I wish I had a maid!!! ... so being that one of my best friends works for a local maid service? I hired exactly that as a pre shower gift.   She was absolutely insulted...  so now I am in tears, thinking I wanted to do something nice.. and well it was a disaster as usual.

I am up constantly these days with nightmares of my daughter going missing, being sick, getting hurt... forgetting her in places... I drempt last nite that I was pinned to a table and pieces of my body randomly split open.. I saw the inside of my toe in vivid detail and HEARD it even slowly rip open... I even felt the PAIN of it doing so.. they are horrible...

I wish I had a magic Wand and could wave it n make EVERY little thing better for all my friends...

*sigh*

just had to talk to someone... so it had to be you... all the other friends?? are busy fighting

 

 

look in my profile pix for two new pix of Natalia (currently awaiting approval)

and two more in Tilly & me album... .( also waiting approval)

Enjoy... she grows faster every day!
... but she;s the best gift I ever received

 

 

"Best I Ever Had"

Now I know I messed up bad
You were the best I ever had
I let you down in the worst way
It hurts me every single day
I'm dying to let you know

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend

So many things I would take back
You were the best I ever had
I don't blame you for hating me
I didn't mean to make you leave

You and I were living like a love song
I feel so bad, I feel so bad that you're gone
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

We fell in love for a reason
Now you're leaving
And I just want you back
So many things we believed in
Now you're leaving and words won't bring you back
I'll never let go of the heart I broke

You and I were living like a love song
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were the best I ever had
I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were,
You were the best I ever had
 

THIS IS SPAM!! STOP SENDING TO ME AND STOP FALLIN FOR IT
 

if you click the link it takes you to a BBC news story dated SEPTEMBER 2001!!! omfg ppl, READ STUFF.... dont fall for crap!!
geeeeeeeeeeeeze

if ever you get an email that says send it on or else blah blah blah.. it is SPAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
and it wants you to SPAM your friends.... cmon ppl... think bout it
besides if msn DOES shut down??? omfg, we have facebook, ICQ, Skype, yahoo,google chat... like really... who gives a crap....


VVVVVV IT IS SOOOOOOOOOOOO chainmail.... omfg

please don't delete this message because this is not chain mail.





Hey it is tara and john the directors of MSN, sorry for the interruption but
msn is closing down. this is because too many inconsiderate people are
taking up all the name (ex: making up lots of different accounts for just one
person), we only have 578 names left. If you would like to close your
account, DO NOT SEND THIS MESSAGE ON. If you would like to keep your
account, then SEND THIS MESSAGE TO EVERYONE ON YOUR CONTACT LIST. This is no
joke, we will be shutting down the servers. Send it on, thanks. WHO EVER
DOES NOT SEND THIS MESSAGE, YOUR ACCOUNT WILL BE CLOSED AND YOU WILL COST
10.00 A MONTH TO USE. SEND THIS TO EVERYONE ON YOUR CONTACT LIST. NOW YOU
KNOW WHAT TO DO. PLEASE DO NOT FORWARD THIS or REPLAY. COPY THE WHOLE EMAIL.
GO BACK TO YOUR INBOX AND CLICK ON NEW. AND PASTE THANK YOU FOR YOUR
ATTENTION. It's no joke if you don't believe me then go to the site
(http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/business/1189119.stm ) and see for yourself.
Anyways once you've sent this message to at least 18 contacts, your msn dude
will become blue.


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THANK YOU FOR YOUR ATTENTION...


so ... did your lil msn "dude" turn blue??? bet not...
next time you wanna forward something that looks so legit as to cause you panic?? type in the headline to google n see if its a HOAX or not first.. .it might just save you from looking stupid.......
 
(also notable: the copcar fakes, the phone things, the PIN number for your bank card, the airfreshners, and all the other stupid pass them on to everyone or else stupid crud...)
 
ok thats my rant, thanks 

Jeff is at home now recovering, doing well. He sleeps on n off n wanders the night still, but it's nice to be in his own bed.

I sleep in the spare room, so i can get some sleep.... as he is often up n down all nite.

He is eating well, and says things are starting to taste better.

We go test his INR levels tomorrow ( blood thinner levels) to see if everything is doing good there.

He will return to work probly by August 1.

and then I will be here more often again.

Hugz to all my friends and thank you for all the nice notes in the inbox :-)

take care!!

Lisa

 

Friends, please light a candle for my husband who goes for open heart surgery to replace his mitral valve and repair his tricuspid valve on Wednesday June 4th at 7AM MST ( 2pm GMT )

I know alot of you are keeping me and our daughter Tilly (Natalia) in your thoughts and prayers and it is much appreciated. Thank you, and I will let everyone know how it goes as soon as I can :-) 

xxooxx

Lisa Michelle

(pink_RAZR, Nutmeg, LisaMF, LisaMichelle)

 

For alot on here it won't be a surprise, my Husband is going for heart surgery June 4th. So I won't be on much for the next 8 weeks or so til he is recovered.  For the first week I probly won't be on at all, simply because I will be with him at the hospital. Then the following weeks I will be home but taking care of him while he gets better faster and stronger once again. SO, I didn't want some friends or people to wonder or anything, so Now ya know.

I took comments off my blog a long time ago, so you can't leave me a message this way, and I can't put my email because that would be plain stupid, SO I turned inboxes back on in here, if you need to leave me a message, or w/e just contact me thru the gamedesire inbox service.

Sorry. I know we have separate computers now but with how busy it will be.... I can't say how often I will be here to see anyone or to check messages. But I know alot of thoughts and prayers go with me, and thank you for that, and so, to most of you, Have a Nice Summer, and see you near the fall.

xxxoooxxx

Lisa Michelle ♥

 

When I  could see

I was blind to you

When I could feel

I was senseless in action

When I could touch

I was numb to your touch

When I could hear

I was deaf to your words

 

And now that all this is gone…

I wish for one last day.