Spring time is a great time, everything is more colorful and people are getting outdoors and trying new things and renewing interests in old hobbies. It is fun for them, and a great thing to do in the warm weather, but I am in such a blue emotional state I can not enjoy it, and it seems like I am developing some resentment for the spring activities that are taking the company of people I enjoyed winter away from me. I would never try to stop anyone from enjoying THEIR lives, we only get one and everyone should enjoy it while they can, but understanding that does not make me feel less lonely when everyone is off doing fun spring things, and all I can do is set around and worry about what the doctors are going to do to my heart. There is a problem with at least one value, and it will be at least July before they have all the info they need to figure it out. I got a serious case of spring blues.( NOT THAT ANYONE REALLY CARES ????.

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A man asked his wife, "What would do if I told you I won the lottery"? She answered, "I'd take half and leave you". He said "I won $12 here's your $6 and keep in touch".

I slept 10 hours on my first day of my supposed five day vacation. The next two days I slept like three hours each. Wow.. I can't imagine how to deal with all what I feel. I just broke down crying. I did take an amazing backcountry drive and a short barefoot walk yesterday. The reason for this feeling is my biggest hurt in my life. My mom died on May 10th 1993 from cancer. I was her primary caretaker for the last 18 months of her life.. No shit it has been 30 years and still can't even put words to how deeply this did and still affects me.

DID YOU EVER NOTICE, YOU CAN BE GOING ALONG HAPPIER THEN YOU HAVE BEEN IN YEARS, AND ONE TRIP TO THE DOCTORS CHANGES YOUR WHOLE ATTITUDE ON EVERYTHING?
I SPENT A FEW DAYS IN THE HOSPITAL AND THEY FOUND SOMETHING I DID NOT KNOW I HAD. LITTLE PIECE OF ADVICE RHEUMATIC FEVER, MAKE SURE YOUR DOCTOR KEEPS AN EYE ON YOUR HEART, ESPECIALLY THE VALVES. MY LATE SISTER AND I BOTH HAD RHEUMATIC FEVER WHEN WE WERE KIDS. HER'S WAS WORSE THAN MINE AND WE KNEW EARLY ON IT HAD DAMAGED HER HEART, BUT I THOUGHT I WAS LUCKY, BECAUSE NOTHING HAD EVER SHOWN UP CONNECTING MY HEART TO RHEUMATIC FEVER, UNTIL THIS LAST HOSPITAL STAY. IT IS NOT GOOD AND I WILL MOST LIKELY NEED SOME KIND OF SURGERY TO FIX IT. THEY HAVE A LOT OF TESTS TO RUN FIRST. I FOUND OUT TODAY FROM A VIDEO I FOUND ON LINE THAT NOT ONLY CAN IT HAVE CAUSED THIS VALUE PROBLEM, BUT THE VALUE PROBLEM MAY BE A FACTOR IN THE AFIB ADN AREAL FLUTTER I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH. MY EMOTIONS ARE EVERYWHERE. I JUST SNAPPED AT MY B/F FOR SOMETHING SO STUPID. UNTIL THEY DECIDE WHAT THEY ARE GOING TO DO, I ANTICIPATE MY MOODS BEING BAD. IT SI A LOT TO DEAL WITH. WHEN I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL, I WAS HAVING TROUBLE BREATHING, BUT I DID NOT THINK IT WAS ANYTHING SERIOUS. I HAVE MANY ALLERGIES AND THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A BAD YEAR FOR THEM. i THOUGHT I WOULD GO UP THEY WOULD GIVE ME SOMETHING FOR THE ALLERGIES AND SEND ME HOME. BOY WAS I WRONG! WHAT STARTED AS A 24 HR OBSERVATION ENDED UP A 4-DAY STAY WITH A CHEST X RAY , A CT SCAN, AND AN ECHO CARDIOGRAM. IT WAS THE LATTER THAT SHOWED THE HEART MURMUR AND THE VALVE PROBLEM. THEY KNOW WHAT IT IS, BUT THEY HAVE NOT DECIDED THE BEST TREATMENT YET. I THINK THAT IS WHY I AM SO ON EDGE. SOMETHING WILL NEED DONE, OR IT IS POSSIBLE FOR ME TO DIE FROM IT IN 2 YEARS. I WILL PROB DO AS THEY SAY, BUT THIS KINDA KNOCKS ME WANTING TO LIVE TO BE 100 OFF THE TABLE.

Just diagnosed with lung cancer. All I need is a bunch of prayer warriors to pray for me and help me make it through this. Thanks and God Bless.????????????

NOTHING MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL HOTTER AND FASTER THEN SOMEONE LIEING ON ME. I JUST FOUND OUT TODAY SOMEONE THAT HAS ALWAYS HATED ME HAS BEEN LIEING ON ME. THE INTERESTING PART OF THIS IS THAT THOSE LIES CREATED INSIDE THAT PERSON'S DEMEMTED MIND WERE USED AS JUSTIFICATION FOR DOING SOMETHING TO ME THAT WAS WRONG AND UNFAIR.
IT WILL ALL WORK OUT IN THE END THOUGH CAUSE KARMA IS THE GREAT EQUILIZER. LOL AND IT MAY TAKE A BIT BUT IT GETS EVERYONE WHO DOES BAD THINGS IN THE END. SO I AM JUST GONNA SIT BACK AND WATCH AND WAIT FOR KARMA TO LAY THE SMACK DOWN ON THE LIAR.

A woman goes on holiday to Barbados .......
Upon arriving, she meets a man, and after a night of passionate love making she asks him, "What is your name?"
"I can't tell you" the man says.
Every night they meet and every night she asks him again what his name is and he always responds the same, that he can't tell her.
On her last night there she asks again,
"Can you please tell me your name?"
"I can't tell you my name because you will laugh at me. " says the man.
"There is no reason for me to laugh at you," the lady says.
"Okay. My name is Snow!" the man replies,
and the lady bursts into laughter;
The man gets mad and says,
"I knew you would make fun of it".
The lady replied,
"I'm not making fun of your name.
I'm thinking of my friends back home who won't believe me when I tell them I had 8 inches of Snow everyday in Barbados!" ????

WOMAN SHOT IN THE HEAD Linda Burnett, 23, a resident of Minnesota, was visiting her in-laws and while there went to a nearby super-market to pick up some groceries. Later, her husband noticed her sitting in her car in the driveway with the car running and the windows rolled up. Her eyes closed with both hands behind the back of her head. He became concerned and walked over to the car. He noticed that Linda's eyes were now open and she looked very strange. He asked her if she was okay; Linda replied that she had been shot in the back of the head and had been holding her brains in for over an hour (at least it seemed that way to her, it actually had been 15 minutes, she blamed the inability to tell time on her head injury).The husband called the paramedics, who broke into the car because the doors were locked and Linda refused to move her hands. When they finally got in, they found that Linda had a wad of bread dough on the back of her head. From the back seat a biscuit canister had exploded from the heat, making a loud noise that sounded like a gunshot, and the wad of dough hit her in the back of her head. When she reached back to find out what it was, she felt the dough and thought it was her brains. She initially passed out, but quickly recovered. Linda is blonde, a Democrat, and a Biden supporter; but that could all be a coincidence. The defective biscuit canister was analyzed and it was determined to be Trump's fault.~~ If you read all of this you have been cooped up in your house to long. You need to get some sunshine.~~ If you laughed, like I did, share with your friends.