Rage is an unpredictable thing. I hate when it builds inside me . The fire was started on the 8th when my damn brother in law said we could not go see my oldest sister on her birthday, because he was tired. I was hurt and angry. I got somewhat past it even though it was still simmering inside me. Then tonight I saw something that upset me and when I tried to find out what happened, those that knew were less then helpful. The gasoline on the fire was when I proved someone had lied to another friend of mine and my friend had believed them when they told the lie. Tonight I got the chance to prove they lied, but was worse then the proof of the lie was being forced to bend to the liars will rather then finish what I had started.
I hate when I get like this. It is not a good idea for anyone to be around me when I am like this. I do not even like myself when I am like this. So instead of being where I really want to be I am here writing a blog trying to get rid of my anger. There are so many times I have thought how nice it would be to be in complete control of my emotions. Unfortunately I am Pisces control is not our thing. One thing the fiery rage I am feeling tonight may be doing, It may be burning out some of the longing I have felt sense my birthday for things to be as they once were. I have my issues and problems but I do not lie to friends and finding out the person I was feting about lied to a friend of ours is going to help me move past the attachment I was missing.
jane_and.the_dragon
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Worry about your character, not your reputation. Your character is who you are, your reputation is who people think you are.
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