DO YOU EVER JUST SIT AND THINK?2017-10-23

jane_and.the_dragon

     Do you ever just sit and think about things?   I am beginning to come to the realization I should not do that.   One of my exes once said I have and active mind.   I never really understood what he meant by that till recently.   When I am just sitting thinking my mind races from one thing to another, sometimes without a visual bridge between them.   But somehow inside my mind they are related.   Some of the thoughts running round in my head are good memories from my past.   Some of the thoughts are dreams of the future.   Some of them are memories of things I wish I could change from the past, but sense I can not I have not use for these memories other then to learn from them and not make that mistake again.   Other thoughts are of how my life would have been different if only one thing in it had been different.    An example of something I think about a lot in those thought full times is my sister.   She was a few year older then me and died from a hole in her heart when she was only 3 weeks old.   My mom told us about the morning she died so many times it runs like a movie in my head.   It is as though I was there seeing it unfold before my eyes.    One of my other sisters said she did that to make her real to us younger ones that never met her so we would remember we had another sister after mom was gone.   I have often wondered had she lived would she have looked like my oldest sister, and how would my life have been changed by her life.   I would have had a sister nearer to my age I could have had a bond with.   If she had lived there is a chance I would not have had as much love from my father as I did.   You see I believe my dad blamed himself for her death even though he did nothing to cause it.   The morning she was born when he went in to see my mom he said to her " You and your damn girls."    They had only one son at that point.   Well 3 weeks later she was dead from a hole in her heart.   I think my dad thought the good lord took her back because he did not want her.   Dad was not the same after her death.   I am told he started drinking more.
     When I came along several years later, Dad used to pay extra attention to me.   I loved being with my daddy.   When my baby brother came along 4 years later I remember the morning we went to get mom at the hospital.   It was a cold January day.   While we were waiting for the nurse to bring mom out I asked dad what the baby was a boy or a girl.   He told me it was a little boy.   Then he added he had hoped it would be another little girl like me but it was a boy.   When I grew up and had time to think about what he had said and what had happened when my sister was born it dawned on me he thought my birth was God forgiving what he said about my sister and giving him a second chance.   I feel like he gave me all the love he thought he should have given her.   So it is possible if she had lived my dad and I would not have been as close as we were.   He learned from his mistake.   I do not believe God would kill your child just because you were not grateful to have that sex child, but I think dad may have thought that, and when he got the second chance to love baby girl he was not going to mess it up.
     I was thinking about something my niece said to me the other day.   She said my nephew told her he knows he is not going to live to be very old, and the sad part is he is probably right.   He has fought cancer 4 times and the third time we nearly lost him.   I really hate to think about losing him.   We just lost his mom and dad in 2016.   I really do not want to lose him too.   I have always loved my nephew.   He has always had the best smile and a odd sense of humor.   For Christmas the year we nearly lost him he got me a farting teddy bear.   It has a remote control.   He and my brother were having lots of fun watching me trying to figure out what triggered it to fart.   Finally I flipped it over and opened the battery compartment to shut it off and put it away.   When I went to put it in my box he said to me "Don't you think you should take the remote too?" and handed me the remote control.   I do not know if they did not think I would be smart enough to know I could shut it off at the battery pack of what, but I have many animated figures.   I know how a battery pack works lol.
      Remember I said my thoughts jump randomly sometimes? Sometimes I think about the theory that there are multiple distentions and that everything that can happen has happened in one of them.   If this was true that would mean in at least 3 of them I am dead already, but in at least one of them my brother , mother and father are still alive. Maybe not all in the same detention though.   I told you my mind works randomly and thoughts do not always connect visually.
     This is why I really think I should stop just sitting and thinking sometimes.   My mind is mixed up enough when I am trying to consciously think of things. I really do not need to let it go off on its own.

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In the blood-John Mayer2017-10-23

MyWay.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ILUiMIWc24

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Flying Lady Restaurant Part 22017-10-22

JOHN16755

https://youtu.be/NADKQzClE4E

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Flying Lady Restaurant2017-10-22

JOHN16755

https://youtu.be/0FamMfvjKkw

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Santa Cruz CA !!2017-10-19

JOHN16755

https://youtu.be/WEkoCKbEL2I

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...self-perception is everything2017-10-19

Patricia@ya679

Don't let anyone body-shame you! Happy Halloween!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Pr36CANB04

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Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr2017-10-18

goddess_of_retribution

     Have you ever had one of those days when you just want to punch everyone you know in the face?   I am having one of those days.   It started with my sister waking me up about an appointment I had on Friday that I know I told her was moved.   Then she tells me about all the things she is going to do Friday.   She has swelling of the legs and kidney and heart problems so she should not have her legs down so long.   I told her if she does everything she says she is gonna her legs will be swelled up like bowling balls, but she does not listen.   She goes on to tell me about all the things she has planned for the weekend.   I am so mad she does not take her health more seriously.   Then I come on line to find out someone has been usurping my powers and there is nothing i can so about it.
     So I called my neighbor to see if she was up, because we had plans to work on a craft project today at her house.   She tells me that she is on her way to the dollar store, and when her daughter gets home she wants her to take her to take pictures.   I understand your kids should always come first , but it does not stop me from being mad about it.   Her daughter is 16 and heard me planning to do this project with her mother, so why the hell does she decide she has got to go get her picture taking the very day she knows we had plans?   Ugh teenagers.   I am glad I was never a teenager lol.. Goddess are formed fully grown up lol.
     Then there is this girl I stood up for and bragged on and got her into a cushy job only to have her quit.   Then when we got her to come back not only did she do more work at the place she started at when she left us she has not done hardly anything sense her return. I fear if she does not wake up soon she may get canned for real this time.   Not to mention the knife I feel she has put in my back by taking her skills to the competition.    So to this messed up day I just say GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Hope tomorrow is better.

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thats what Id like to hear... here and then ))2017-10-18

EgoPatrol

just to feel beloved...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7aYxMuLb3h8

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♥ ★ ☆ ☮ ITS WHATS INSIDE IS WHAT COUNTS ☮ ☆ ★ ♥2017-10-17

*Rigs*

Good day Everybody! I'm Back lol

Always bringing you the very best

New Rock Music Videos

available to you, right here, right now on your

favorite game site, Game Desire.

This song is from Fall Out Boy

is called "The Last Of The Real Ones"

and is a song I love and so will you.

and was released Oct 12th, 2017

That's just ..A COUPLE DAYS.. AGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARE YOU FCKN' Kidding me???

How FRESH is that? lololololol

My SHIT is ALWAYS so, so, so Fresh! n40.103.gif

This song is the DOPIEST DOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As promised, New Rock Music Videos,

signed, sealed & delivered.

Live Version...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MLJBw8gmqE

Studio Version...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7YAAyUFL1GQ

.I was just an only child of the universe
And then I found you
And then I found you
You are the sun and I am just the planets
Spinning around you
Spinning around you
You were too good to be true
Gold plated
But what's inside you
But what's inside you
I know this whole damn city thinks it needs you
But not as much as I do
As much as I do, yeah

'Cause you're the last of a dying breed
Write our names in the wet concrete
I wonder if your therapist knows everything about me
I'm here in search of your glory
There's been a million before me
That ultra-kind of love
You never walk away from
You're just the last of the real ones
You're just the last of the real ones
You're just the last of the real ones
(You're just the last of the real ones)
You're just the last of the real ones
(You're just the last of the real ones)
You're just the last of the real ones

I am a collapsing star with tunnel vision
But only for you
But only for you
My head is stripped just like a screw that's been tightened too many times
When I think of you
When I think of you
I will shield you from the waves
If they find you
I will protect you
I will protect you
Just tell me, tell me, tell me
I, I am the only one
Even if it's not true
Even if it's not true, yeah

'Cause you're the last of a dying breed
Write our names in the wet concrete
I wonder if your therapist knows everything about me
I'm here in search of your glory
There's been a million before me
That ultra-kind of love
You never walk away from
You're just the last of the real ones
You're just the last of the real ones
You're just the last of the real ones
(You're just the last of the real ones)
You're just the last of the real ones
(You're just the last of the real ones)
You're just the last of the real ones

I'm here at the beginning of the end
Oh, the end of infinity with you
I'm here at the beginning of the end
Oh, the end of infinity with you
I'm done with having dreams
The thing that I believe
Oh, you drain all the fear from me
I'm done with having dreams
The thing that I believe
You drain the fear from me

'Cause you're the last of a dying breed
Write our names in the wet concrete
I wonder if your therapist knows everything about me
I'm here in search of your glory
There's been a million before me
That ultra-kind of love
You never walk away from
You're just the last of the real ones
You're just the last of the real ones
You're just the last of the real ones
(You're just the last of the real ones)
You're just the last of the real ones
(You're just the last of the real ones)
You're just the last of the real ones.

falloutboy-youngandmenace.jpg?itok=9239P0iA

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Sugar Babies2017-10-17

NAPOLEON BONERPARTE

These might be made of cake frosting but who could take a bite? You might appreciate these truly amazing creations, they are made of frosting! THIS WOMAN IS DEFINITELY TALENTED.....

Marzipan Babies

Thought you'd be as fascinated with these as I am. These are made with marzipan....really unbelievable! While some of the faces may look "crafted" rather than "real", every detail is amazing, and the rest looks VERY real. Enjoy the talent given this person.

Definition of Marzipan

Almond paste: a sweet paste made of ground almonds and sugar, often with egg whites or yolks, used as a layer in cakes or molded into ornamental shapes.

Marzipan Babies

UNBELIEVABLE!

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California Firestorm!!2017-10-17

JOHN16755

This is a Video taken about 7 Days ago of the destruction the Fires in California have done and are still burning , it looks like someone dropped a Atomic Bomb! The last I checked we have 17 or 18 Fires currently burning here in California. Whole community's burned to the most total destruction I have ever seen , I never could have imagined this in such a populated area! Some of the Fires are slowly getting some control to them, we have Firefighters from around the Country that have come to California to help fight these Fires , We thank all of those that have risked their lives to come here and help! Thousands of homes have been lost & many lives lost & many people still missing & unaccounted for. Many people have lost everything they own , the one thing they have left is their lives & the determination to rebuild their lives. We pray for the people who died & those family's that lost loved one's!!
https://youtu.be/QNp8Rjw4zmM

https://youtu.be/q8SIMFcZ2vA

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LOYALTY PT 22017-10-16

jane_and.the_dragon

I have been doing some more thinking about loyalty, and how someone else s wavering loyalty can cut you like a knife if you were loyal to them. Have you ever had someone to which you were dedicated, someone who you admired, and appreciated. The kind of person that made you smile just to be around them. Then one day out of the blue you look up and they are gone. You search for them, and maybe find them. You try to get them back in your life, but it only takes a short time to find out the loyalty you felt for them was not felt for you by them. You feel hurt and betrayed. It is like they have plunged and emotional dagger into your heart. The loss of what you had perceived you had is painful, but not as painful as what you know is to come. I do not know how many of you know this, but sometimes I can see things that are going to happen before they do. You can call it precognition, intuition or just a chance happening, but you know bad things are going to happen to the one that was disloyal to you, and you will not have to do a thing. The question is should you try to stop them or let the time line stay its course. It is really hard to gather compassion for someone who you feel betrayed your loyalty. Fact is two wrongs do not make a right, and you acting like they did will not make anything better. So no matter what anyone does to you just know you must be true to yourself, because bottom line you have to live with yourself.

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MI ETERNO AMOR SECRETO2017-10-15

columbaa

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QMy79mwBMU n37.115.gif

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Help me with a story with only (4 words)2017-10-14

kich401

Once upon a time

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NO ONE PROMISED TOMORROW2017-10-14

sweetlips1959

LIVE TODAY LIKE IT UR LAST,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,TOMORROW BE TOO LATE,,,,

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Michael Jackson - Beat It2017-10-13

GIRL L-A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oRdxUFDoQe0

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HEAR SAY AND DRAMA2017-10-13

jane_and.the_dragon

     Have you ever noticed how many people are willing to listen to hear say and gossip rather then just asking the people that know if something is true or not?   On the internet it is even worse then in real life.   I guess people think if you see it in writing ie text then it must be true.   I have a news flash for you all people can text a lie just as easily as they can speak one, and if you take it on blind faith that what you read is true it will be you who looks like and idiot, when the real truth is know.
     I never take one account of anything as the total truth until I have checked all the facts.   Even if it comes from someone I know has never lied to me before, I still check it out before I go starting a fight with someone over something I heard somewhere.   I found out recently just because you think the person has never lied to you before does not mean they will not lie to you now ( If it suits their needs at the time).   When you go tripping over something someone told you and it is a lie, you make yourself look like a fool for believing someone who is trying to manipulate you into doing what they want you to do.     T
     The type of person that lies to you in an attempt to get you mad at someone else does not care about you.   They know when the dirt hits the fan it will not be they standing in the way of the spray it will be you, AND THEY DO NOT CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU.   My best advice is check everything out before acting on anything you hear or read.   You will save yourself and others a lot of time and stress, and you will also keep yourself from looking like an idiot.    You can not trust the word of everyone you think you can.   I found that out the hard way recently.
     SO IN CONCLUSION : STOP AND ASK QUESTIONS WHEN YOU HEAR OR READ SOMETHING.   YOU WILL SAVE EVERYONE A BUNCH OF UNNECESSARY DRAMA.

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Welcome to Queenstown!2017-10-13

Raidho

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TOgjJH7oNYU

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PLAY KLONDIKE?? let's be friend and work together / agregame y trabajemos juntos.2017-10-11

_L_Mental

IT'S DIFFICULT TO FIND FRIENDS WHO PLAY THIS GAME

Klondike PLAYERS!! SINCE THERE ISN'T AND OPTION TO SEE WHO ARE THE PLAYERS ONLINE
WHILE PLAYING THE GAME.
I CREATE THIS BLOG
TO LET OTHER PLAYERS KNOW ABOUT MY INTEREST ON HAVING SOME NEW FRIENDS VILLAGE
TO VISIT
MY CURRENT LEVEL IS 28 BUT I CAN'T KEEP MOVING FORWARD WITHOUT ANY HELP...
AND I'M SURE SOME OTHERS PLAYERS ARE IN A SIMILAR SITUATION
IF YOU ARE INTERESTED ... ADD ME TO YOU FRIEND LIST!! AND I'LL BE VISITING U VILLAGE SOON!

MUCHAS GRACIAS!!

MY 1 LANGUAGE IS SPANISH... :)
DONT JUDGE MY ENGLISH PLEASE

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THE UNCONTROLLABLE NEED TO BLOG2017-10-10

jane_and.the_dragon

     Have you ever been struck with the uncontrollable need to blog?   This morning is one of those mornings when I have been hit with the uncontrollable need to blog.   I had a really bad day yesterday that I will not bore you with, followed by way too much chocolate last night, and woke up later then I planned to this morning.    As a result instead of jumping into what I had planned to do today like a normal person would do I am sitting here writing this blog because I feel the uncontrollable need to blog.
     I was in an emotional turmoil last night because of events beyond my control. That is why I ate the chocolate. It was a bad depression, but it did what I wanted it to at the time.   It pushed my sugar level up high enough I actually got some sleep.   Unfortunately for me I slept longer then planned.
     Have you ever been hurt by the actions of friends that really had nothing to do with you directly , but you were the one that had to deal with the fall out from it?   Let me give you an example:   When my nieces were in their teens they got in a fight.   I never knew what the fight was about.   They fought a lot.   After the fight they arrived at my other nieces birthday party.   I asked them to pose together so I could take a picture of them together.   I take many pictures, and I had not seen them in a while so yea I needed a new one.   My younger niece flatly refused to pose with her sister for me.   I was very hurt. She said she was not posing with her cause she was mad at her. OK she was mad at her sister, but I was the one being hurt.   I wanted the picture.      Her sister did not care one way or the other she would have posed for me.   This goes to show when you act in anger you realllllllllllly should take a look at what you plan to do first and see who will be the ones that are really hurt by your actions.   Will it be the ones you intended to hurt or will it be others who you claim to still love?
     Anger is a strange thing.   I believe it comes from the part of your brain that wants what it wants when it wants it and it does not care about what anyone else wants.   Never mind if you hurt those you love or crush someone else's dreams as long as you get back at the person that made you mad.     I understand that feeling too well.   The difference between me and many is when I hurt someone I did not mean to I feel bad about it and work to fix it.
     One night I blew apart a friend of mine's net world in a fit of anger and then spent the next 2 hours undoing what I had done in one action.   One should always stand accountable for their actions, and I do.
     Have you ever noticed how people get defensive if you try to point out to them what they are doing is not a good idea?   I really think it is deep somewhere inside the human species to think they are always right EVEN if they do not want to admit that to themselves lol.   You think I am kidding you? Try this start a sentence to a friend with the words WHY DID YOU DO ... then finish the sentence with something they actually did.   Watch how quickly they get defensive even if it is something silly like Why did you come 15 min early.
     Ok I think I have blogged out most of the need to blog I had this morning, so I will come back again some time soon.

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♥ ★ ☆ ☮ I'M SO GONE ANYONE COULD SEE, THAT I'M WASTED ☮ ☆ ★ ♥2017-10-10

*Rigs*

Good day Everybody! I'm Back lol

Always bringing you the very best

New Rock Music Videos

available to you, right here, right now on your

favorite game site, Game Desire.

This song is from Vance Joy

is called "Lay It On Me"

and is a song I love and so will you.

and was released July 12th, 2017

That's just ..A COUPLE MONTHS.. AGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARE YOU FCKN' Kidding me???

How FRESH is that? lololololol

My SHIT is ALWAYS so, so, so Fresh! n40.103.gif

This song is the DOPIEST DOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As promised, New Rock Music Videos,

signed, sealed & delivered.

Studio Version...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXXD1Qxpisw

Lyric Version

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xK6SQAZ4-iQ

I'm so gone

Anyone could see that I'm wasted

You cut through

And I just wanna know what's in your head

Write it on a piece of paper, honey

Put it in my coat before I go

Hidden in a place you know I'll find it

Later when I'm sitting all alone

Let me in

Everything starts at your skin, so new

Your love's always finding me out

Who am I kidding?

If all my defences come down, oh baby

Will you lay it all on me now?

Lay it all on me now

Snow comes down

everything is new and different

I found you

hidden in plain sight, why'd it take so long?

Write it on a piece of paper, honey

Put it in my coat before I go

Let me in

Everything starts at your skin, so new

Your love's always finding me out

Who am I kidding?

If all my defences come down, oh baby

Will you lay it all on me now?

Lay it all on me now

Your love's always finding me out

Who am I kidding?

If all my defences come down, oh baby, babe

Will you lay it all on me now?

Lay it all on me now

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Pixar People2017-10-07

NAPOLEON BONERPARTE

ARTIST TURNS STRANGERS INTO PIXAR STYLE 3D CHARACTERS.

by Chatty Buddha | Sep 12, 2017 | Pictures | 3 comments

Wouldn’t it be cool to be a character in a Pixar film?

Well, this is actually a thing. Talented 3D artist, Lance Phan can transform real life people into digitally animated versions of themselves.

Waaat?

That’s right, Lance cartoonizes complete strangers who send in their photos to his Instagram or Facebook page.

He said: “It started out as practice, I asked people their permission to experiment on their pictures.”

Now Lance has over 78,000 followers on his Instagram which features his awesome transformations.

Check it out.

H/T Smosh

Credit: Lance Phan

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DO YOU EVER JUST SIT AND THINK?2017-10-23

In the blood-John Mayer2017-10-23

Flying Lady Restaurant Part 22017-10-22

Flying Lady Restaurant2017-10-22

Santa Cruz CA !!2017-10-19

...self-perception is everything2017-10-19

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr2017-10-18

thats what Id like to hear... here and then ))2017-10-18

♥ ★ ☆ ☮ ITS WHATS INSIDE IS WHAT COUNTS ☮ ☆ ★ ♥2017-10-17

Sugar Babies2017-10-17

California Firestorm!!2017-10-17

LOYALTY PT 22017-10-16

MI ETERNO AMOR SECRETO2017-10-15

Help me with a story with only (4 words)2017-10-14

NO ONE PROMISED TOMORROW2017-10-14

Michael Jackson - Beat It2017-10-13

HEAR SAY AND DRAMA2017-10-13

Welcome to Queenstown!2017-10-13

PLAY KLONDIKE?? let's be friend and work together / agregame y trabajemos juntos.2017-10-11

MY 1 LANGUAGE IS SPANISH... :)

DONT JUDGE MY ENGLISH PLEASE

THE UNCONTROLLABLE NEED TO BLOG2017-10-10

♥ ★ ☆ ☮ I'M SO GONE ANYONE COULD SEE, THAT I'M WASTED ☮ ☆ ★ ♥2017-10-10

Pixar People2017-10-07

ARTIST TURNS STRANGERS INTO PIXAR STYLE 3D CHARACTERS.

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